It’s already half way through June! Seriously where is this year going? I have so much I want to accomplish by 2017 so I guess I better get a move on. Today I went on a few castings in the morning and I spent the afternoon photographing more clothes (the clothes pictured below are not going to be for sale). I’m getting way more into it than I thought I would. I planned on just taking quick simple shots of each item of clothing but once I started everything needed the right accessories and right hairdo and makeup. So it’s taking me much longer to get it all finished but it’s so worth it to me to make the pieces look as good as I have felt in them. Each and every thing I will be selling has a memory attached to it and I hope whoever buys it will cherish it as much as I have. For years I’ve just hoarded clothes always too scared to give something up but I think it’s healthy to learn to let go. Letting go doesn’t come very easily to me. Recently a family member of ours passed away. He wasn’t blood related but he was like a second father to me. His name was David Morse. He was one of the most kind and caring men I’ve ever met. He was so good to my sister and I growing up. There are a million things I wish I could tell him but it’s too late. My heart mourns for him every day and I’m trying to let go and accept the fact that he’s gone but it’s so hard. He was shot and killed by a single stray bullet in his own front yard. All we know right now is that it was two kids playing around with a gun. Strangely I’m not even mad at the kids who did it. Maybe it’ll be a different story when I can put a face on them or know the story behind why it happened but for now it doesn’t seem to matter how it happened. He’s gone and we can’t change that. There are so many words left unsaid. I know he wouldn’t want me to be sad that he’s gone. He’d want me to cherish our good memories together and I am each and every day. I just wish I could tell him once more how much of an impact he made on my life. I am grateful for each and every single day we had together and he will be kept alive in my memory.
The whole point of blogging for me is to get out of the real world and all of the bad things happening in it and write about things that make me happy and take pictures of outfits that make me happy. It’s the little things like that that make the hard days a little easier. But this tragedy has had a huge impact on my life and it feels good to talk about it on here.
To anyone reading this I hope that whatever tragedy is going on in your life you don’t let it consume you. Find time to do something you love or be with someone you love. There is so much life out there to live. Don’t get lost in the sorrow.
In other, much happier, news my sister’s bachelorette party is coming up in a few weeks! My sister lives in Florida and I only get to see here once or twice a year so I’m counting down the days till we’re reunited. She is my very best friend and she’s getting married to an amazing man and they have an amazing baby together. I’m an aunt for the very first time in my life and it’s such a wonderful feeling. I hope one day our kids will be best friends. <3
My black duster is from Boohoo and I basically live in it. It’s so comfortable and it goes with pretty much anything. It looks like this duster isn’t on the website anymore but here is a similar style.
My boots are Jeffrey Campbell from Free People. I normally don’t splurge on clothes or shoes but I had been dreaming of owning these shoes for so long. With expensive purchases I always give myself at least one full month to mull it over and decide if it’s something truly worth the money. It helps me save money and not impulse buy. I’ve done so much impulse buying in my past and I usually regret it. You can still find these boots at Free People.
My thigh high socks, black dress, and antler sweater are from Forever 21 ages ago.